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[Oct. 16th, 2005|10:50 pm] |
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wow, sometimes i forget i have a lj. im feeling very happy tonight for no reason. last night was a blast. went to see tuba and the might dice play and spent money at the bar. woohoo. sage was so drunk he was dancing. sage never dances. he refuses to play ddr yet he was dancing and he even spun me around a few times. i had a very good night. its problably because i didnt have to work at all yesterday. i have fun at work though...im on everyones good side. yay. i will be a waiting tables all week starting tomorrow. i hope i make some decent tips. blahblahblah. i hate assembling drums. someone come put them back together for me. blah and goodnight. |
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[Sep. 3rd, 2005|11:36 pm] |
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well scratch the bellydancer and porogies... we went somewhere else..and i ate steak *gasp* " a fat mans heart-attack is the mad cows revenge!" i did work out tonight though. good for me. tomorrow i just might fast..to really get the lard ass feeling out of my system. yay im gonna workout everyday...so if anyone wants to come along that would be nice. i miss my friends. trips w/out friends and jsut your rents get depressing. blahblahblah. |
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[Sep. 3rd, 2005|04:28 pm] |
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it wasnt even 2pm and i drank a margarita as big as my head. 14$margarita. i got a straycat cd today. im in a rockabilly mood.when i get home i want to dress up. haha. i need to hang out w/ jesse asap. i want him to play and sing earth angel to me. hehe. tonight we are going to the russian restaraunt. im gonna eat some porogies and theres going to be belly dancers. well my dad finally saw the tattoo on my chest. he handled it well. i cant shock him anymore. not that that was or is my intention. when i get home im not going out to eat for a while. im going to ride my bike and walk alot too. |
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[Sep. 3rd, 2005|02:33 am] |
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i never want to tear anyone down or make anyone feel stupid. i hate feeling that way. its emberassing when i catch myself w/ nasty assumptions and hateful thoughts. i dont even realize sometimes how polluted my head is . i find myself judgmental lately. thats going to stop...im going to try to be a better person and not a buzzkill. sometimes i dig to deep to see the bad. now im going to just look for the good. if someone thinks if im ever abitch ..just tell me and slap me or something. wait...violence is bad! |
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[Aug. 22nd, 2005|02:56 am] |
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leslie is magical!!! i swear. i had so much fun w/her this weekend. but i have realized ive been drinking too much too often lately. so noone let me drink for a while. i shouldnt be drinking everyday. jared made me feel so stupid. he was being offensive although he said he didnt mean to be...i dont think he wants to make music w/ me anymore,i think ive lost interest in it now,i dont know. im sad...pathetic sad. i hope i get a job soon. i hope i get to play w/ billy and drew soon too. im so glad i know billy ...heahter,billy,and leslie are the people dearest to me right now. i cant wait to get your letter heather! blahblahblah. STILL NO A/C. |
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[Aug. 18th, 2005|01:11 am] |
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its been nearly 2 weeks now w/out an a/c. im so happy when i get to sleep at other ppls houses. waking up hot and sweaty is the worst way to start a day. today was not one of those days. today i went w/ billy to fairhope. it was nice and a lot cooler there. we went downtown and ate at some pizza place and then walked to the pier. im so outta shape its sad. i feel horrible lately...and i realize i have been eating alot of junk and the heat doesnt help. no more junk for me... im going to start feeling alot better. we did play for a little bit. tommorrow is going to suck ass. im going to go fill out applications and then later i have to take family pics. i really hate taking those. everyone yells at me for blinking my eyes in all the pictures but i cant fucking help it. alli know is noone is ever going to see these after they are developed. i finally got a myspace. my e-mail is jennysimoneed@hotmail.com . so far billy is my only friend. blahblahblah...going to go dye my hair now. night-e-night. |
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[Aug. 12th, 2005|05:41 pm] |
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i feel sick already and heather only left this morning. just knowing i cant randomly hangout w/her really gets me down. heather you are my everything! tonight is eltoros and then cole and clairens going away party. depressing. hung out at kaoz all day yesterday. got another hole in both ears and a new tattoo. its pretty. i dont feel up to anything. im not giving in to dairy products anymore. im attempting the vegan thing again...seriously. farewell for now. |
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[Aug. 9th, 2005|03:35 pm] |
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this weekend is going to be very sad. heather,cole, and clairen will be gone...ive known clairen since i was 9 yearsold and have grown very close to cole and heather in the past year. its going to be hard to adjust to not being near people ive seen everyday,thought about, or spoken to every day for the past year or so. im going to be insane. i made margaritas again yesterday w/ jared ,started on that idea around noon. later on we got some beer and hung w/ sage and heather for a while...then i did his hair. i like it alot. i have an odd sum of money,which is very rare, and now im debating on what i will do w/it. im leaning towards a tattoo or another piercing. its so very tempting. im sitting at jareds right now...he is going to cook me some pasta today. yum. who wants to go on a road~trip? i havent left mobile in a while. a trip would be fun. i dont really care where i go. some scenery and fresh air...ahh *sigh* |
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[Aug. 7th, 2005|10:03 pm] |
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it has been a weekend of drinking. yay. played a little bit w/billy and sage today and saw "land of the dead" heh. im so tired...but i think i just might have myself a mixed drink. i love playing drums. i love my heather too. we were being so emotional for eachother last night. lalalala...i look forward to making music tomorrow. blah blah blah blah. |
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[Aug. 5th, 2005|01:34 pm] |
my drums now stay in hillsdale at billy and sage's. its cool though...its nice to jam w/random ppl. listen up ppl!!! karioke party at my place tonight! there will be food too...but im not worried about that i just browsed the liquor...i hope i get silly drunk. so whoever wants to get down in song..you oughta be here! wow i feel like i live in hillsdale. today sage and i are goin on a hot date...to find a bowl or something. woot. sage should buy me a smomothie. blahblahblah. be a fool tonight.
Heather i love you!!! thanx for all the cool clothes! |
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[Aug. 3rd, 2005|02:21 pm] |
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I got my lip pierced again last night...so i have 2 rings side by side. i like it. after last night it is decided drew will be jamming w/me and billy. it was nice sitting there on the porch listening to them playing along w/each other on the acoustic guitar and acoustic bass. drew even whipped out the mandolin and harmonica. i want to learn how to play the mandolin! the music was so pretty. so at some point to day we will make some more music..yay. im so happy i finally get to be apart of something. heather i miss you...come hang out w/me! i achieved peaceful closure from walter yesterday..so im very relieved. i didnt want us to go on w/out being able to talk to eachother w/out fighting. it will problably still be weird and all..but now it doesnt hurt so much. yay ok. im gonna go be lame and watch tv till billy gets here.c-ya |
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[Aug. 1st, 2005|11:04 am] |
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That show last night was alot of fun. Afterwards i kicked back at billy and sage's with billy and sage of course and johnny,mark,daniel,chris,and even drew at one point. I drank alot. daniel drew me pretty pictures. yay. i watched them play some hardcore poker W/6$ on the line. we all took dirty pictures w/ johnny and wrote on him. he was trashed...and falling asleep w/his arm inside the trashcan. i never got to play w/ steven...but its alright. haha ohyeah i got my 1st tattoo last night...its a little red lightening bolt. its very me i think. well holy hell! kerri meddley is living w/me for a while. and shes not an uptight christian anymore...i thought this would be my chance to corrupt her...but its already begun...therefore i am here to enforce it. im bringing her to drews so he can see for himself. the worlds getting a little better everyday. yay im so damn happy today. shes also awesome on the guitar and might veen be picking up a bass and playing w/ me and billy sometime. i think my dad is taking us out for lunch today. yay i get to jam w/billy and finish a song today. well im going to go print out pictures of johnny for the party wall that sage has been working on. im out. |
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[Jul. 31st, 2005|10:58 am] |
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Im so excited today! My childhood friend is coming to see me and Iget to play w/ Billy and Steven as well. I cant wait to see Heathers new house. I hope that they are done moving in! SLUMBER PARTY!!! Not a freaky one though. I hope not. It would problably end up that way. lol. I love making music. Ahh! I look forward to the projects that'll be going down. Its great ...I get to do stuff w/Billy...which I wll mostly play drums and maybe sing here and there and then w/ Jared I will be singing and maybe play drums for a song or two. Im anxious to jam today. Steven will prob think I suck. He sounds like he plays w/ alot of different people frequently. But I still wanna play.Today will be one long song. |
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[Jul. 30th, 2005|02:16 pm] |
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yesterday was nice. i felt so tranquil. we had the largest table yet at karioke night. i swear heather your gonna sing atleast one song before you leave me.billy looked so happy last night.yay. i think everyone at billys had a good time. there was alot of drinking and PDA. we even managed to go hang out across the street. those guys smelt funny. i smoked to much last night. i freaked heather and jared out on the way back. my chest started pounding and it felt like a block of ice. I literally felt like my chest was frozen. i was so short of breath i felt like i was gonna pass out. my muscles were soo tight,i had pain in my arms and all the way upmy spine. But it is gone now ..yay. i have been smoking alot lately...just cigs and cloves. alot of cloves. and then i hit all that shit last night. it is time to quit again and maybe not hit the pot soo hard on the occasion i might smoke some. anywho, i cant wait to play w/billy and his friend steven. steven was cool. its funny...im usually really messy,as much as i drank and as many times i sat on the dirty porch...my clothes look so clean and still smell good. yay. i dont even feel nasty on this lovely saturday. oh must go clean anyway. later. |
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[Jul. 28th, 2005|09:06 pm] |
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ahhh...i feel sick. lol. ahh. im in a bizarre mood. so jareds cool as shit. we randomly went swimming at 4am. everythings blurry.btw i did not say heather and walter had sex. im sorry for this miscomunication...i feel so hurt and angry all at the same time. as soon as i get up i feel myself comming down slowly and then my heart pounds and its all so fast. i get upset and it becomes this nervous explosion. my chest hurts. im so confused right now. i want a healthy mind. i got to talk to my brother today...it was nice he sounded happy and he thanked me for the card and$ i sent him for his bday. i want to go up there to visit so bad. i bet its beautiful there. i want to go somewhere. |
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[Jul. 27th, 2005|12:18 pm] |
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fuck. i just typed an awesome entry and for the 2nd day in a row it just disappeared. anywho...leslies bday bash and the slumber party after was great fun. im so happy i got to hang out w/everyone and act such a fool. sorry if we freaked you out sydney~we didnt mean anything by it,just silly/fun chitchat. I want THE RUSSIAN!!! no foolin. im very serious. billy and i finally got up on that music like weve been talking about for months. so far weve already started working on 2 songs and i love how they sound so far. that was only after an hour w/ alot of messing around w/ different stuff... i cant wait to see what we manage to come up w/ in the end. I want to play a show so bad,not any time soon of course, but one day. speaking of billy... ive been informed by 2 people that it is rumored i have a thing for him...thats bizarre i hate to let anyone down...including whoever had this idea...but we arent in 6th grade...the only reason i can think why someone would assume that is because i hang out w/ billy alot,but besides that ive given no reason whatsoever for anyone to believe that. boys and girls can get along w/out taking to that kind of liking. now the russian on the other hand...heh, i mean it. oh russian. dont ask me to explain,i just cant help it. well im outta here....much love! (especially for the russian) |
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[Jul. 25th, 2005|01:18 pm] |
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Recap: Walter and I are no longer together, I wrecked the buick, DQ is shitty, and I would like to have friends and a life again. I want to atleast be able to hangout w/ you fuckers. Goddamn it!!! Everyone seems to always be working, busy, or moving away anyway. BLAHBLAHBLAH FUCK. Oh yeah, my hair is dark brown now. |
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[Jun. 3rd, 2005|03:04 pm] |
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i dont feel like ritalin does anything to me. ive been getting plenty of sleep and ive been taking it every morning and i feel very fatigued. this is bunk. |
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[Jun. 2nd, 2005|01:19 pm] |
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today i studied and took some practice ged test. i did well. i only took the language arts reading and writting today. im doing math tomorrow. i know im an idiot and its supposed to be easy to pass it. but i havent studied or done any school related work in a while. i just want to make sure i only have to take it once. im going to be so emberassed if i have to take it twice. atleast i admit im dumb and im trying . well im going to be getting my excersize today. im walking to and from work ...2:30 to close. i cant wait for payday! blahblahblah...i have and hour..im gonna play my drums for a while. |
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[Jun. 1st, 2005|12:57 pm] |
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my pink panty pull downs are yummy!!! 2 nights in a row. girls...the pink panty ladies will have another meeting soon. i promise you. i wanted last night to be martini night but that didnt work out. we did get plenty of olives and took a few shots of tequila here and there in between drinks. we got pickes for ashley livings. it was fun girls night. we lit candles and listened to music while we drank pppds and ate chips and salsa. after having a good day off yesterday and getting to sleep in today..im soo damn relaxed. i dont have to be at work till 5. i think im going to do some yoga. we got yummy snacks from the indian food store too. i love that place. the man that owns it is really sweet and he gives us free things to try. i bought some very spicy vegan trail mix stuff....jesus!!! my face was tingly for nealry half an hour and i turned pink. i wanna make toffu stir fry . i cant wait till i get my paycheck soo i can buy some groceries and more liquor. im still gonna make dinner for everyone soon... so far ive lost 8 lbs!that makes me so happy. well i hope everyone has a good day. |
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